Talking isn't the only thing we do

2011-05-17T16:39:00.002+08:00

Sorry my blog has been dead all this while. I was too busy with ......

Well I didn't plan on coming here at first until I had this sudden thought of dedicating a blog entry to my girlfriend. She's the reason I've been so busy lately.. so busy that I don't have time to bullshit on forum or update my facebook status or even study for my coming external exams (which are really huge)

Er... I forgot what I wanted to say. I'll come back again another time.

2011-04-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

Should I delete all my previous blog entries? I feel like my blog needs a new start. I feel like I have changed internally and I would like to show you my transformation through my writing.

Truth is I just finished reading all the blog entries on my own blog and realised that my english was PRETTY AWFUL.

Should I not care?

I was going to write something else, something totally different from this before I decided to read back on all the stuff I've blogged.

Never mind, I'll come back again sometime...

Hopefully with better things that are less boring.

2011-03-09T23:14:00.002+08:00

Seeing my friends acting lovey dovey with their significant others isn't exactly the best feeling in the word, especially when I'm still alone (23 years and still counting) and there's no prospect of love whatsoever.

I think it's cool to have someone to whisper sweet nothing to once in a while because people not only need love, we also need to give out love.

I think it's nice to have intimacy with someone once in a while because hugging and kissing makes all the blues go away.

I think it's sweet when two people can just spend time together doing nothing but sharing with each other bout their lives and their stories in the past.

2011-02-11T06:10:00.001+08:00

I love my mom more than anything in this world!!

Mom, you rock my world if you would pick up my dishes, wash them, pick up my laundry, wash them, pick up my cups, wash them without a complaint!!

I love you!!

2011-02-05T06:23:00.002+08:00

Lying in my bed with my eyes closed but my brain working on its own at full rate. I woke up to my laptop, typing on my keyboard, bearing the risk of waking up the woman sleeping next to me (Just a friend lol)

If change is the way to start a new year, I have failed once again.
It almost seems like my life has been stagnant all this while and nothing has changed. Maybe not. But at least it is so in terms of my physical looks.
I have been getting a lot of criticism (not in a harsh way) on my boyish dress style lately by A LOT of friends. It's Chinese New Year I know. It's the time when people come back to their hometown, dress up nicely for house visiting and play make-up. When I refuse to follow such Chinese New Year's norm, I become the talk among my friends.
They say "Lose the jeans! Wear a skirt! Lose the sneakers! Wear high heels! Grow your hair long! Wear make up".
I listen and think to myself "Yes.. you're way past the age to play teenager.. It's time you act and dress like your age..I should don everything I'm wearing that they disapprove and go for the BIG change"
However, is change that easy? Maybe I am scared of changing maybe I am afraid to fail..maybe changing doesn't make me better..maybe I'm afraid to be laughed at..
Or maybe... it's time for me to lose my ego
A change is needed... I get it.. I'm aware of it.

I'm type A

2010-12-21T17:23:00.002+08:00

I want to be more patient. I am learning to say "I'm wrong" and "it's alright". I need to be less hostile.

2010-12-21T11:32:00.001+08:00

Hello? 为什么我全部的朋友做事情都没有交代？？

2010-12-20T13:47:00.001+08:00

Guys talk about politics and with mockery. Girls talk about feelings and with sympathy. That's how different we are. If we are not of the same breed, we will not have realised each other's existence.

2010-12-19T18:57:00.002+08:00

咸咸的，是血的滋味。在嘴里流着的血，让我意识到了它真正的味道。为什么有人说血是甜的？我不知道，因为我不是个吸血鬼。多余的介绍就不必了，因为这只会是一个短短的故事。

“把嘴巴张大一点。” “啊。。。！” 张大了嘴巴之后所露出来的牙齿正被一位漂亮的牙医检查着。我心里有点紧张，只希望不会让她找到半颗蛀牙，因为这样太丢脸了。他似乎看出了我的紧张，徐徐的把头靠向我的左耳，透过被口罩盖住的小口，轻轻地说了一句“不要怕”。她的靠近让我小鹿乱撞的心更加的急速狂跳。不是因为我更清楚的看见了她美丽的双瞳，而是那从她长发中所散发出来的洗发水的香味。如此近的距离让我清楚的听见了她的呼吸声。‘呼。。’ ‘吸。。’ 我开始觉得自己的双颊发烫，甚至还忘了呼吸。我不敢直视她那双勾人的眼睛，只好紧紧的闭住了自己的双眼。可是那阵无法遗忘的发香仿佛在残酷地提醒着我她的存在，飘逸在空中，怎么也散不了。

若此时用一对听筒聆听我的心，你会发现它在跳动地如此大声，快速又疯狂。嘴里流了血。血不经意地碰触到我的舌头，初尝到的血的咸味，不知何时变成了甜的。一定是种幻想。就像那一股看不见的香气，尝不到却可以想象到它如嘴里的血一样的甜味。

2010-12-19T17:58:00.003+08:00

Because I am bored and because I am on holidays, I am going to try to do some writing in Chinese.

Pictures

2010-12-13T04:10:00.003+08:00

For the sake of letting you know that I've got a good phone with a good camera and also adding REAL pictures to my blog for the VERY FIRST TIME, I created this entry.

Pictures are on my facebook too. With captions.

Suicide

2010-12-12T09:05:00.002+08:00

I read a post on a friend's blog about a guy, Alviss who committed suicide and was ridiculed for his stupidity, after his death. Never in my life had I thought that I would be talking or even interested in such a topic. Because life is life. While some people can't stop complaining about their lives, others strive to live one more day. Death, a matter that has always been on my mind. As much as I can't see myself contributing to my own death, I have actually been feeling rather suicidal in the past few weeks. Not in the sense that I want to end this life I'm living but in the sense that I won't be sad if I have to stop living right now.

Smart people want more because they are smart. It takes much more for them to feel complacent with their lives, some even never will. I'm not saying that being smart is making me suicidal as I never really think I am. It's just that sometimes you wonder 'What is the meaning to life?' You set a goal, you plan steps to achieve it. When you do, you move on to another one and it keeps going on. You achieved your goal, so what? You feel happy the moment you achieved it, then what? Then, nothing. Because happiness passes and sadness stays. So you keep doing things that give you happiness, even though it won't last. When you look at life, life is just time and you're just an empty shell which contains a soul. As the clock ticks, your soul fades away bit by bit until it is completely gone and so are you.

What is there to life? Studies? Work? Money? Love? Relationship? Nothing, you're just waiting to die.

Tears for Sale

2010-12-12T08:59:00.002+08:00

Movie for the week: Tears for Sale. A serbian movie about two sisters who have killed the last man in the village and are forced to find a replacement for the sake of their late grandmother's spirit.

Reasons you should watch this movie: Beautiful, sexy serbian WOMEN. Extremely creative, slightly magical story (A lil fast-paced), fun and entertaining, nothing you've ever seen.

Movies that I recommend for the weekend

2010-11-26T21:54:00.004+08:00

1. Flipped
2. Easy A

3. Going the Distance (if you are really bored or free)

2010-11-23T13:25:00.002+08:00

I believe I was 7 or 8 when I had my first crush. She was my neighbour who lived on the same block but two floors below. She was a very pretty, fair-skinned non-chinese. I had always looked up to her as she always struck me as someone bright and cool. When my whole family were moving out of the flat we used to share, I remember crying my eyes out over the thought of having to leave my neighbour and never seeing her again.

My second crush happened when I first joined my school's athletic team in primary 4. There was this really fair-skinned and skinny guy who was 2 grades ahead. He was so obedient and always seemed to be training so hard to improve his athletic performance.

My third crush was a guy who was one year older than me and who also happened to be on the athletic team. His skin was nowhere near fair because he's non-chinese. But that didn't bother me much. I never had the chance nor the courage to go up and talk to him. Rather than like him, I think I idolized him.

Wild Target

2010-10-27T03:17:00.003+08:00

Wild Target is the reason why I love British comedy. This is a movie about an old-fashioned 54 going on 55 assassin, Victor Maynard who has been hired to kill a con artist who has conned his boss. While failing to carry out his contract, he finds himself in an odd position where he has killed the replacement killer, become his target's body guard and picked up an apprentice.

Unlike most american films, the humor is done brilliantly without involving any disgusting scenes that will make you sick. The movie has a lot of funny lines, such as "You got plastic on everything. I bet condoms don't bother you." The cast members were amazing and couldn't have played their characters better. Bill nighy was great as an uptight assassin with little moustache and middle-parted hair; Emily Blunt was charming as an obsessive thief who couldn't resist stealing everything she saw; Rupert Grint lost his childishness in Harry Potter and played a gullible young adult who was really talented in being a killer. Among other great things, the soundtracks in this movie are as interesting and exciting as the movie itself.

Despite the fact that the movie is highly enjoyable, it does lack a touch of realism and logical sense. What happens in the movie is not unlikely to happen in real life. But why question realism and practicality when you're watching a movie and looking for a good laugh?

All in all, Wild Target is a good choice of movie for all types of viewers who are looking for good entertainment.

Room in Rome

2010-10-26T20:55:00.003+08:00

Two strangers, two women; one hotel room; in a strange country; That is how the story in a room in rome begins between two beautiful foreign women. Where accented english acts as the main means of communications between the two, beautiful Russian, Spanish and Italian are spoken when the universal language fails to express themselves. When multiple layers of lies stripped down, lie within the core are the heart-wrenching inner truths of their lives outside the seemingly virtual closed space.

The sexuality and the nudity in the film neither degrades the film nor objectifies the female leads; Instead, it further enhances the artistic aura discreetly built around the main characters. Accompanied by lovely soundtracks which intensify the affection, the characters will slowly grow on you. Among other great soundtracks done by the Russian Red, the one that stands out most is 'Loving Strangers' with beautiful lyrics extremely close to the story. In a melancholy tune, one of the verses sings "and I've got a whole lot of work to do with your heart cause it's so busy, mine's not."

Towards the end of the movie, the characters are torn between going back to their old lives without another and picking up the new life they have created together. At this point, the truth doesn't matter anymore. Nor does the fact that they both happen to be women who fell in love with each other over a night. Ultimately, you find your heart willing for their love to continue and secretly wishing for a similar encounter somehow, someday.

2010-10-22T03:15:00.002+08:00

I am going to turn this into a movie/tv show blog because

(A) I do watch a lot of movies and tv shows

(B) they're all I talk about (apart from exercise and diet)

(C) I like sharing good shows with my friends

(D) They're are more interesting than my boring life

So, I'm going to make it work, write reviews on good shows that I've watched and hopefully some of you will find them useful.

Life

2010-10-16T19:21:00.003+08:00

An acquaintance from high school has recently passed away. Some girl that I had always liked but never got the chance to get close with. Everyone is giving their condolences on facebook which got me thinking to myself "Will I get the same treatment when I die? Will someone besides my family shed tears for me upon my leaving this world? Will I, myself, cry for having to say goodbye to everyone I know and leave them behind?" I guess I will never know until the moment I die.

What can we say about life? Life is life.
At the end of the day, that's another day gone.
Life is short, ooh, life is short.

My friend, do rest in peace.

2010-10-14T18:44:00.002+08:00

If I ever said that I was jealous of people who always knew what they wanted to do with their lives because I didn't. I was lying. If you know me, you know that I am a person who completely knows what she wants in and with her life. Because most of the time I act on impulses. Because most of the time I do before I think. However, there is one situation where I will say "I don't know what I want". That's when I know what I want and I will never get it. What I do is I keep telling myself I don't want these things that are out of my reach. I will not say it out loud because I don't want people to know I want them but can't get them. I will not spend more than a minute entertaining the ridiculous thought of trying to get them. I will block my wants out of my mind. Because a dream will always remain a dream.

2010-09-13T21:51:00.004+08:00

One trip to the U.S.A is what it takes to wipe off my immunity to bitchy and mean people.

I admit to having a strong personality which sometimes might come off too strong for you to handle; but as compared to those real bitches out there, I lose hands down.

It's not easy to suppress the scary side of me and to play dumb or innocent with people. This is as far as my ego would go; To downplay my intelligence, to speak in a softer way, to seem harmless, to force a smiley face and to not care;

If you are a bitch, stay away from me; Do not worry, I will not come close to you either.
If you are mean, do not talk to me; I will not care to listen to what you have to say either.
If you are a close friend of mine and think I have been too bitchy or mean with you, let me know.

Bitches, I used to like you because you are so brave, because you are not afraid to speak up for yourself in whatever situation. But I don't like you anymore because you hurt my ego, make me look weak and more importantly, you waste my precious time.

Specialisation

2010-09-06T18:27:00.002+08:00

To store and play songs, I use mp3 player.

To take photographs, I use digital camera.

To watch shows and go online, I use laptop.

To make calls and text message, I use cellphone.

I like one-function-device. They are specialised and less complicated as compared to uberlly awesome cellphones nowadays (iphone) which comes with all the functions mentioned above.

Imagine the same preference applies in the matter of love:

To flirt and feel pampered, I go to boyfriend A.

To go to movies and have serious conversations with, I go to boyfriend B.

To go shopping and swipe his card, I go to boyfriend C.

Finally, to fuck, I go to boyfriend D?

2010-08-29T05:03:00.002+08:00

A week in KL gained 2kg of fat to my body. This busy KL city life is doing my body no good but my ego likes it.

From long hair to short, short hair to long, and now back to short hair.

Lazy with words, hence this simple yet concise update post

2010-06-13T20:01:00.002+08:00

下午心痒痒跑去看中文小说，又把自己的心情搞得乱糟糟，一直在那儿沸腾沸腾的。所以在这里写写东西，搔搔痒。不是想搞笑，纯粹想写些轻松的事情娱乐一下自己。

为什么我每次穿着我两百块的西装裤，酷酷的骑着机车出去的时候，老天就给我下雨呢？你这不是在玩我吗？还糟蹋了我那好看又好贵的裤子！在家的时候不下，我出去了，你就拼命地给我下。我唯一的一双鞋子都给你弄湿了，连老妈的那双运动鞋也滴滴答答地流着你的泪。很无奈呀！你就不能稍微行行好，让我有个快乐的独处时光吗？偏得让我每次都落汤鸡的模样回来，被家人笑话。

Change

2010-05-30T18:25:00.004+08:00

A self-loathing cycle began, words flashing through my mind.

Friends, family, lovers.

Changes in perception, changes in behavior, changes in likes and dislikes, changes in habits.

Change of heart, change of mind, change of envinroment.

Moving on, staying still, leaving out, falling out.

Confrontations, apologies, insincerity, fighting, ending.

Happiness, emptiness, thrill, disappointment, forebearance.

Expectations, confidence, friction, farewell.

Tears, laughter, smile, voices.

Growth, pain, distance, gap, vanish.

Friends, family, lover.

2010-05-10T18:40:00.003+08:00

For 2 whole days, the streamyx service interruption has kept me away from the virtual world in which I feel most comfortable. One I did not create but shall stay in forever. Despite the great upset, I have managed to keep myself utterly busy with reading and watching stuff in which I've never quite taken an interest in the past. How odd and perhaps a little bit off-putting it is that my mind can so quickly shift from one thing to another. Two days ago, it was all comics; Yesterday, it was all english dramas set in the victorian era; Today, it is all nothing for I have done nothing but trying to get the only device that connects me to the virtual world back into good condition. I have failed and I have snapped; I have presevered and I have finally succeeded. You can never stop a smart brain from having ideas and solutions, can you? Speaking of pride.

Has it ever occured to you as it has occurred to me that when you are by yourself, doing nothing but thinking the strangest things in your head, wandering across any borders you trespass, you will have millions of thoughts and so a many things to say? Funny thing is, while you finally get on to putting your delicate ideas into words, telling so many others the great things you have thought, you find yourself having not a word to say. At times like these I am vexed for there is so much I would like to say to the world, for I can't let you in my mind where beautiful words are formed and brilliant ideas are stemmed. Vanity, it is. Indeed. For how much I would like people to think me smart as well as I think myself to be; For smartness is a great compliment one could get and never forget.

If you're finding my english so very odd and old-fashioned, I can tell you it is the reading I have done over the time I have been cruelly kept in this very real world. Nevertheless, I assure you, I will be myself again in no time for nothing has ever kept me the same for too long. My mind fast changing, never allowing myself to indulge in a thing for too long, I shall very soon be back to my old self in which I speak a more eloquent and normal english like a modern human being does.

此刻的心情

2010-05-07T13:43:00.002+08:00

这篇文我决定用中文来写，因为脑海里现在浮现的尽是些伤感的华语字。看不懂中文的朋友，抱歉了，就算你不读这篇文也不会有任何闪失。毕竟这只是我写来抒发自己的情感罢了。

太久没有看漫画，忘了为何每次都很不愿意开始追看一部新的漫画。因为有开始，就有结束。因为有欢乐，就有悲伤。当你因为一部带给你无止尽的欢笑声，不断在脑海里回想并爱不释手的角色而爱上它，你自然而然地希望它会永远继续下去。可是那是不可能的，因为所有事物都有一个结果。花了短短2天读完22卷的“校园迷糊大王” （School Rumble)漫画，却感觉自己与漫画里的人物一起度过了高中三年不可思议的快乐时光。很想成为他们，很想跟他们交朋友，很想跟他们攀谈几句，很想成为荒谬搞笑的2C班的一份子，可以吗？不可以吧。。。我是真实的，他们是虚拟的。

仔细想想，真的很可笑。怎么区区一部漫画带给我的心灵上冲击力和影响往往远远大过于家人与好友所能给的。我会为一部漫画大声地笑，为一部电影留下眼泪，为一首歌唱上千万遍，却不会为了周遭的家人，朋友给予体谅和包容。我的热血，我的热泪全都撒在虚拟世界里了。剩下的微不足道的份量在真实世界里根本就不足够。这只验证了一个事实：我的完美世界只存在于虚拟的2D世界。书里的人物，荧幕上的角色都是2D。

想当初网球王子结束的时候，我也用很菜的英文写了一篇伤感的文章。就是这样吧？我终于了解报章上读到的与动画人物结婚的男子心情。因为太爱了，所以疯狂地做些己所能及的事情来表达自己的这份喜欢。

啊。。。我想我是真的疯了，竟然为了一部漫画这么感伤！虽然很快就会从这悲伤中走出来，我却不想忘了此刻的心情。它让我意识自己是个真真实实，不乏感情的人。

如果你终于看完了这篇文章，本人在此非常的感谢你的耐心。我只是很想写些东西。

Obsession

2010-04-23T09:26:00.002+08:00

The thought that I could like something or someone so much, even to a point of obsession vexes me. I like to have full control over my emotions and feelings; I clutch on to sanity and rationality because I know they keep me away from obsession. But once in a while I get obsessed with things that I am not supposed to and very often they are the characters of a tv series or a movie.

Is it a good thing that I'm obsessing over a tv character instead of a real person? Because that way I will never do anything silly or malicious to the person that I'm obsessed with. The most I will do is google the character's name, jot down every single word that she's said on the show, quote her lines and download as many of her picture as I can find on the internet. Or is that bad enough already?

Gosh, have mercy on me and please put an end to this awfully relentless obsession of mine?

Is Micha Barton really fat?

2010-04-09T13:24:00.003+08:00

I'm still not used to this whole Mischa-Barton-got-fat thing. She was so skinny and pretty on the O.C like years ago? What happened to her? How long has she been non-Hollywood-skinny? I used to like her.

2010-04-09T11:49:00.001+08:00

09 April 2010

2010-04-09T08:20:00.002+08:00

Was ready to head off to gym with my lousy bike when I came back home to get my stuff and broke the damned motorcycle again. Okay, I left the choker on for too long AGAIN this time and burned the spark plug AGAIN. Right until this moment, I didn't even know what choker was, let alone its purpose in starting a motorcycle or how bad it was to leave it on for too long. I never ever, in my life, had to ride a motorcycle which wouldn't start without choking! Bloody bike, now everytime it breaks down, my family has to go through a huge drama just to get it fixed even though I have barely said a thing except maybe "oh the damn thing is broken again!". I wasn't sure it was my fault until I googled 'motorcycle choke on too long'. Only then I realized it was 100% my fault.

With the guilt eating me up, I decided to go the fridge and ate the remaining birthday cake that was left over from last night and made myself even more guilty. Oh... FML

08 April 2010

2010-04-08T10:51:00.002+08:00

After eating a big plate of beef-curry-rice and munching on peanuts, I decided to go on my second fast at exactly 10 am.

The fast got broken because it's my niece's birthday, I had to eat her cake

I am going to have to play the Coyote Ugly movie for myself everyday because I tend to forget why it is so important to have a good body.

A sh... will be necessary

2010-04-07T06:37:00.007+08:00

Ah so I told my mom about wanting to get an endscopy but it didn't go very well because my brother was there too. Really, people.. can you please hold your tongue if you don't know the slightest thing about the situation here? Why do people always assume they know best when they don't? If you are so sure you can be your own doctor, why do you need to go to hospital at all? Why do you even need doctors to tell you what is wrong with you and your body? Honestly, I don't even trust the doctors here.

I seriously think people should learn to shut up when they should especially when they haven't the slightest idea about what is going on. Seriously, I only talk of the things I know of. I talk facts and not assumptions. While I know there is too much negativity going on in my personality, I try really hard to tone it down. I am not trying to make myself sound like a saint and I certainly wasn't born to a family as a slave. It's just normal family problem, one that is deep ingrained and the root itself will never be identified, let alone removed.

Due to the huge fuss I just made because of my stupid stomach condition, I am secretly praying I do have peptic ulcer or some other conditions I'm unknown of 'cause mom has just said the word that she's willing to fork out the money for my endoscopy at a private clinic. I'd better be sick or I go home with remorse and humiliatian entailed by the looks of my family which say "I told you so. It's your own bad doing" .

06 April 2010

2010-04-07T06:06:00.002+08:00

I really was going to skip blogging about yesterday because it was a bad day. I have learned to stay away from blogging when I'm in a foul mood otherwise there will be just too much whining and ranting on my blog and I don't like that. I don't like to publicly talk ill about others because it's just not a nice thing to do but I do share their bad deeds among my close friends :P I hold grudges, after all.

In case some of you are curious about how my first fast ended, I'm going to tell you now. I actually cheated on my 23rd hour into the diet and broke the fast with a small packet of nips followed by a boiled egg, 1/3 can of tuna and a small packet of IKO biscuit. Honestly the fast was miserable but not because of the hunger. There was this intense burning sensation within my stomach that would only go away for 15 to 30 minutes everytime after I made myself drink a lot of water. I wasn't feeling weak or anything. I did a lot of walking to and fro the graves and even watched my brothers eat their kampua and kuih while I was on fast.

I'm glad I didn't pig out on food after the fast. I calculated my total calorie consumption throughout the day and it did not go over 1400 so I think I should be fine.

Believe it or not, I don't think I can lose any more weight when I plateau at 54kg until I have my stomach problems fixed. These problems are causing my unhealthy eating habit and it is really hard to stop because if you're given a choice, would you rather be plump or have heartburn/ stomach burn your every now and then? Speaking of which, did you guys ever have stomach problems like mine or is it just me? It could be common, or not. Not everyone feels their stomach burning all the time.

Just so you know, I am not finding excuses for my chubbiness because I do blame myself for all the overeating and lack of exercise. My body is craving strength training but I am too lazy to get some.

07 April 2010

2010-04-07T05:51:00.002+08:00

I am sick of the constant stomach discomfort and bloating that I have had for so long. As if that's not enough, now I'm suffering from stomach burning as well every 2 hours I don't eat. I think I've found the reason why I'm always eating and yelling I'm hungry. I tend to eat to relieve my stomach discomfort. God knows what is going on in my stomach! All the symptoms shown lead to either peptic ulcer or irritable bowel syndrome but I don't really feel pains in my stomach, only discomfort ALL THE TIME and I don't get heartburn, only heavy breathing EVERY ONCE OR TWICE A WEEK. Okay, that sounds bad enough.

I think I should get an endoscopy and have my stomach checked but I dare not ask my mom for the money to pay for the check-up because even the cheapest one costs more than 400 at a private hospital. I have no choice but to try to get a free one at the sibu general hospital. As much as I hate going to the poliklinik and the long waiting hours just to obtain an appointment which I may not secure, I really don't have a choice. Mom would rather pay for my funeral than my body check-up. Last time I told her I was going to spend a good 200 bucks on some blood test, she scolded me for 2 days even though it was my money to spend.

05 April 2010

2010-04-05T05:05:00.002+08:00

It's not a new day for me. My long day started yesterday as soon as I decided to put myself on this eat-stop-eat diet where I have to fast twice a week for 24 hours. In other words, if you last ate at 6pm on Monday, you will have to wait until Tuesday 6pm to have your next meal so that there's a 24 hour fast in between those meals. My last meal was taken yesterday at 3pm and I am still regretting not finishing the Beef-stomach-noodles which were supposed to get me through this horrible 24 hour fast.

4.55am, got woken up by my mother in a very soft way. We're to visit our dad's graves in an hour but I'm here blogging bout my diet instead of getting ready? It's okay, I always take less than 10 minutes to get ready. 14 hours into the diet and I have 10 more hours before my first 24 hour fast is finally over. The day is over only after the fast is over. Touching my stomach and I have to tell you, it has never felt flatter since I was 13 years old which is exactly when I started packing on weight and turned from a anorexic-looking stick into a normal-size-girl-with-some-curves.

I am kind of hungry and I am craving chocolate. Was literally staring at the tuna buns that mom bought me last night but can't really go after them because you know..hmm hmm.. Whenever I feel a bit hungry, I have to fill myself up with water but it won't last you more than an hour. Think it as a way to detox, I have never done any cleansing of my internal body in ages. Cleansing. Detox. Yes, keep that in my mind to prevent me from breaking my fast and pigging out on the food. Self-discipline and a strong mind is the essential thing for a healthy lifestyle and weight loss. Long term starvation is bad and one that is done with guidance and timing regularly is going to do more good to your body than harm. I am going to prove that to you, or at least I hope I could.

10 more hours to go, 10 more hours to go. Should I get a milo just so I don't faint at the graveyard when we go? Excuse, my body is definitely stronger than I think it is. With the amount of fat that I have, especially in the middle section, I can go without food for at least 3 weeks as long as I get sufficient amount of water. My body needs to be starvingly shocked from time to time to increase its sluggish metoblism and work more efficiently.

Alright, enough rants. Gotta go. I'll be back before the fast is over. :<

04 April 2010

2010-04-04T07:46:00.004+08:00

Today, I showed the very first symptom of a workaholic. I was craving caffeine. Without wasting any time, I shamelessly made myself a coffee and got myself caffeinated. All these years of accusing caffein of making a sleepless, famished zombie suddenly seemed non-existent. It's Sunday, I watched a movie, I drank a cup of coffee and now I'm in love with it.

6.45am - 7.15am: Did a good 30-minutesof cycling. Had cars and motorcycles honk at me everytime I was pedaling so hard up the main-road hill. Was it their way of complimenting my nice legs or was it just a way of them saying "Get off the road, you stupid bitch. You're in my way!"? Anyway, I was totally in my zone and couldn't care less about them. However, it did take me back to the scenes where young malays and middle-aged chinese men whistle at me everytime I strut down the street or even walk past a coffee-shop IN SIBU. This is the kind of situation where exactly you should have every right and reason to deliver the sarcastic, vulgar yet powerful one-liner that says "Fuck My Life".

Planning to make a trip to the library after I'm done blogging this shit and having a nice shower. Am painfully aware that reading and writing is essential for improving a language, in this case, english. As much as I hate studying, a good command of english has proven to be inevitably vital to a) be a good flirt (especially among westerners cause seriously, how many asians can flirt or even get it?) b) keep yourself on a high intellectual level c) speak and write the way you intend d) stand out in sibu e) keep the idiots away from you

8.51 am, how many more carrots can I make myself eat? I've already done 4 today :< I think I'm going to have a dream of myself turning into an orange, carrot-girl tonight. FML.

03 April 2010

2010-04-04T07:19:00.005+08:00

Okay, this was a wasted day. I couldn't bring myself to blog on the same day because there was nothing to blog about. First, I did 0 exercise yesterday 'cause I woke up at 5.30pm. Second, I actually woke up at 2.30pm by the same store-room-digging mother just to have some of my brother's chicken rice (yes, I finally gave in to temptation! It's only been a day, for god's sake! I'm just going to keep eating it, hopefully till the point it makes me sick then I'll stop for eternity) and went back to sleep.

Okay, so I was up and it was 5.30pm. While I was deciding whether to go jogging or staying in for a good movie I just downloaded (it's a tough call) and at the same time, hating myself for promising to make it a daily routine, it started raining. Thank god for your mercy because that means no jogging for the day. Yoo-hoo!

7.30pm, trying to sit myself down for a couple of good movies but found it to be extremely difficult as I was fidgeting over a 1963-black-and-white movie. The fact that it was lesbian themed and starred by Audrey Hepburn didn't help much due to what staying in Sibu has done to me. What exactly has it done to me? If you live in a small, under-developed place like Sibu, what will be dampened is your ability to sympathesize and appreciate an intense drama-movie.

9.30pm, steamed a carrot and a potato for 15 minutes. Ate them along with a poached egg and discovered that steamed potato tastes extremely well with poached egg yolk.

Instead of making myself watch some more serious, romance-featured movies, I decided to give myself a gulty pleasure by playing the movie ''Bitch Slap". It is a B movie but it is also a movie brilliantly done by 3 gorgeous women, each with an amazingly sexy bod! The lesbian kissing and sex scenes didn't turn me into a lesbian but they did inspire me to continue my workout just to get a hot body like theirs.

Forgot to mention, mom has gone to Sarikei for what you call 'grave sweeping' in chinese but I'm sure she will be back by the afternoon just so she can wake me up from all the store-room digging noise again. Has it become a routine or not? I need a better way to wake me up. Even an alarm clock gives off a nicer ring then my mom does.

P/S: FYI, I do not list down everything that I eat for the whole day. I eat multiple, light meals a day and keeping record of what I eat daily will be a very tedious and difficult job. If you're thinking that I could live off potatoes and carrots for a month, or even a week then you're totally wrong. LOL.

02 April 2010

2010-04-02T19:10:00.003+08:00

Woke up at 2.30pm by a store-room-digging mother, wait, that's my mom. The store-room is in my room, my room is a store room.

Made myself a drink blended with soy milk powder and a red apple.

Steamed some cabbage leaves with one australian carrot for 15 minutes. Splashed in some disgusting ayam-brand tuna and finished the whole thing.

At 6.18pm, rode a lousy motorcycle borrowed from a relative to a park nearby. Walked for 25 minutes, jogged for 5. Covered a distance of 2.0 mile. Very ashamed of my own poor performance, I promise I'll work on that. (Jogging is just not my thing, it bores me to death but I will get through it)

Wondering what to eat for dinner. Saw a lot of chickens on the table cause my brother is a chicken rice seller and obviously he failed to sell all this afternoon. I love chickens which means I am very tempted but I don't feel a bit hungry.

Planning to do cycling/rope jumping/hula hoop for 20 minutes but my house is way too crowded with people it totally unmotivates me.

At 7.32pm, ate a bowl of seaweed soup with egg. I hope I can sleep early tonight so that I won't feel hungry in the middle of the night.

2010-03-23T04:45:00.002+08:00

Today I woke up and thought to myself "thank god for giving me a pair of nice boobs"

2010-03-12T08:44:00.002+08:00

Lost, lost and lost.

Have been nothing but lost, depressed and ill-tempered ever since I came back from the US.
Have done research on the courses that I'm planning to do for the past few weeks.
Have laid out several study plans in which financial assistance is the key element for each of these plans to succeed.
Have found my interest in medicine but do not dare to venture as it means more scoldings, more discouragements from family and friends, more money wasted and large sum of debts.
Have been convincing myself to do ACCA which is the cheapest and the least time consuming course available but at the same time is virtually irrelevant to my past academic achievements.
Have been changing my minds on this again and again.
It is a battle between money and passion.
How do you choose?

2010-01-28T00:02:00.004+08:00

这篇文决定用中文来写，因为老实说，我的英文已经烂到一个程度连简单的东西都表达不出来了。最近跑了美国一趟，兜兜转转，又回来了。在那里接触了许多的中国人以及台湾人。去了一趟美国，英文不止没进步，还弄来了怪里怪气的中国口音（因为这件事还被朋友笑了一顿）

如何说起呢？开始写之前，头脑浮现了好多想法。真正坐下来写的时候，怪了，反而什么都写不出来。想了很多，考虑了很多，也做出了相当大的一个决定，放弃一个不再是是梦想的梦想。为这梦想说付出的时间与金钱到头来变成一种浪费。虽然自己不这样想（如果自己也这样想，那我真的也不用活了，干脆挖个地洞钻下去），但无法改变家人对这件事情的看发。读了一年半，花了上一万，如今却要重新开始。汗，我也只能干笑了。

这应该就是所谓人生的一个转涙点吧？梦想是奢侈的，金钱是现实的，时间是宝贵的。想了一想，可能真的要舍弃读了一生的科学了。真的这么做了，也只会有解脱的感觉，没有舍不得。长大了，面临的种种问题，抉择越来越困难，只怕走错了一步。竟然走错了，只能从起点再走过。

希望一切事物从这一刻起会变得美好，因为人心是承担不起那么多创伤的！

2009-12-04T16:37:00.003+08:00

In 2 days, I have done more reading than I did in the past few months ever since my laptop died on me. It is good to tear away from the computer some time. It proves that I have a life outside the internet world. Just the other night when I told Debra on MSN about my laptop she laughed at me and commented that my existence depended upon my laptop. Haha.. How pathetic is that? My whole life is defined by my laptop. Make it past tense. Unhealthy attachment to electronic device..check..but will be a cross as soon as I manage to get myself busy.

While walking by the racks of books at the public library this morning, I had this urge of scanning through the books that I could get in my hands. Being a nerd, loving books is an essential characteristics that you either have innately or developed as you grew up. I love books, love the scent of the books and in a way, it delighted me. Don't know if I'm qualified to be called one but I would be happy to be one.

As they say in the Big Bang Theory, nerds are new the sexy :D What's wrong with being a nerd and intelligent? Even though being a nerd doesn't necessarily mean you are intelligent, it means something.

2009-11-26T02:55:00.003+08:00

My blog has been dead for a little while and I am sorry about it. I haven't had the time nor the motivation to blog. It is difficult for me to put my thoughts into words, sometimes I don't even bother talking. Well, if you are guessing this is another meaningless post with no content, you're right! Before I first started the blog, I never thought that I would be a bad blogger. I can't be bothered about blogging my days, my school, my work and my family. Sometimes I do, but with very little detail. Don't get me wrong, I do share. I do it on the MSN, not here because I believe this is a place for me to rant, rumble, talk nonsense and most importantly, write english.

In case any of you are wondering where I am and what I am doing now (if anyone's really reading) , I am currently in Sibu, STILL having my holidays. I will be leaving for KL on the 24 december and the states on the 28th. I will be sure to update you on my whereabouts personally on MSN when I get to US. Or I could get into another blogging fever when I get myself a digital camera.

That's all for now. Those who happen to be in Sibu now, do ask me out to coffee chat, lunch or movies. I am always available. Haha I hope I don't sound desperate. I am not.

分离前的2个小时30分钟

2009-10-08T12:49:00.002+08:00

不舍的眼泪从脸庞不停地滑下，不停地。。滑下。是这样吗？会哭吗？会哭吧。会那样潇洒地，毫无保留地哭吧？不会吧，因为那不是我的作风。

机场的重逢是想念的结束；机场的分离是想念的开始。还是会哭吧，偷偷地，鼻子酸一酸，往肚子里流。因为不想被妈妈看见坚强的女儿放声大哭的丢脸画面，所以只可能在离别后，独自一个人在机场默默地悲伤。

为什么人。。总是这样呢？总是在即将离别那一刻，才会想起身边的人的好。此时此刻，想起了妈妈为我做的我喜欢吃的菜肴，想起了她喜欢唠唠叨叨的样子，想起了她每一次在我离开的前一晚都会难过的睡不着觉。事到如今了，她仍然还是那句“为什么要跑到那么远去？”。某个程度上来说，我是很不孝吧。看见年过半百，已经失去老伴的妈妈，我终究还是选择追求自己的理想，把自己的需求放在第一位。当我今早跟她提说若我签证办不成，就索性去古晋读医科的时候，妈妈反而送了一口气，露出一副很希望我去不成美国的样子。是啊，唯一的一个女儿，最小的，却也即将成为唯一一个不在自己居住的国家的家人。

2009-09-29T21:44:00.002+08:00

How ironic is it that I've always wanted to be a grown up, now that I'm finally one I think it sucks to be one?

People go clubbing when they're bored. I get it now.

MEH

2009-09-16T18:03:00.002+08:00

In my world, there are only

My body issue : my big tummy
My academic performance
Sports
TV Shows
Comics
Internet

All I talk about are

My body issue
My academic performance
Sports : tennis
TV Shows
Comics
Gossip

I don't know whether it is good to be boring but I do feel guilty if I ever bore you to death.

2009-07-29T03:18:00.002+08:00

I miss watching Grey's Anatomy Season 1 and Season 2
I miss listening to Grey's Anatomy soundtracks late at night with all the lights off.
I miss listening to Snow Patrol's Chasing Car when Danny was slowly dying in his bed alone in the Season 2 Finale.
I miss watching Isabel lying on the bathroom floor in her fancy prom dress, grieving over Danny's death
I miss watching Meredith and Derek painfully in love when there's an Addison standing between them

Finally 21

2009-07-06T13:01:00.003+08:00

Hi everyone.. thanks for all the birthday greetings, I REALLY appreciate them a lot. (Even though I am always saying I don't do birthdays; still it is nice to know my friends still remember me and even my birthday :D)

If you wanna know,

My first birthday wish is for roger federer to win Wimbledon 2009 which he did and finally broke Pete Sampras' record
The first thing I did on my birthday is cleaning my room: changing the bedsheet, sweeping and mopping the floor that has been dirty for months
First realization on my birthday: Really really got back to my old, big size. Cannot fit in my favourite jeans anymore. So I have to start working out and losing weight AGAIN. (YOU, STOP STUFFING JUNK FOOD INTO YOUR MOUTH)
The first birthday greeting was from Debra (:D) who sent it like 3 hours early?
The first thing I ate for my birthday was chicken liver (eww I know but I read online that it is good)
First person I called was my mom (:D) to remind her to top up my phone credit so that I could get a 50% credit bonus because it's my birthday (which she always forgets)
First friend I called was Yee Wern who obviously was still sleeping and it was (only/already) 9.30 in the morning. She did a lot of funny stuff when she was staying with me and said a lot of bad words too. I am so happy I didn't get influenced by her and start swearing 'KaNi..'

For me, turning 21 means:

Must start watching out my diet really really carefully because my metabolism rate has dropped again
Must have a killer body which I have been saying all this years but failed to achieve
Must get a boyfriend (yes I said BOYFRIEND) because I think I'm drying up (not in the way you think)
Must be sensitive to others' feelings and act my age because you see I'm a full grown up now, I am responsible for everything I do
I can finally vote which means there will be one vote more for DAP
The countdown to losing my .......... finally began (scratch that, I didn't mean it)
One step closer to being financially independent. I want to make a lot, a lot of money so that I can buy this and that for my mom

Owh, I forgot to mention what I want for my birthday this year. Really, all I want for my 21st birthday is a blender :X I almost bought one myself when I was grocery shopping at Carrefour today cause it's so cheap!!! Only 53 ringgit! But I totally overspent last month, so no... The days of making and drinking fruit smoothies everyday are still very far away.

2009-04-06T18:10:00.002+08:00

Being smart gives you the right to call stupid. Just because you can doesn't mean you should.
Really, I don't see much difference in people when it comes to intelligence. You are either smart because you study and read a lot or you are less smart because u study and read less. Really, it has much less to do with your intelligence than hard work.

We want to meet nice people. We don't want to talk to arrogant people who think they are much better than others. Even if you do, don't let it show on your face.

2009-03-19T22:27:00.001+08:00

I am saying this for the very first time in my life:
I am desperate for a boyfriend.
and guys should like smart girls. (NOT saying I am.)

Temptations

2009-02-18T02:49:00.003+08:00

Temptations, temptations, tempations.. I need to steer clear of!!

I really don't want to say this but I'm getting gayer than usual. It is a horrible, terrible thing!

Getting dumb, acting stupid, playing cool, being lazy, feeling empty.

Stuff happened, shit happened, more friends gone, less friends remain.

Getting very paranoid and panicky over everything.

More and more scared of talking

More and more difficult to express my feelings and thoughts

New Year Resolutions

2009-01-31T01:47:00.004+08:00

Instead of making the same new year's resolutions over and over again each year, I'm gonna list some NEW new year revolutions. I am sure you're all sick of hearing people say "oh my new year's resolutions are to lose weight, to get rich and to be healthy".
Okay, here's my list:

Be nice and sweet. (Very improbable but I'll at least try. Next time I am mean to you, do remind me of the new year's resolution i just made)
Be more feminine (I've already bought some make-ups! Eyeliner, mascara! I will try to look less butchy)
Make more friends (Don't get intimidated by me! I won't eat you up.. I'm nothing more than a nerd, OK? Nerds are usually very friendly... We are shy)
Get a man in my life (Yes Yes, I said a MAN!)
Be less vulgar (No more f**k, d**n and sh*t)

Updates

2009-01-14T16:09:00.003+08:00

Will be alone for Chinese New Year.

Totally gave up on the idea of being pretty, that is just not who I am.
Instead, I am going for handsome. I make a better looking boy than girl.

Whoever that has stared at me or my boobs or my legs or my ass, thank you very much for having interest in me, my boobs, my legs or my ass. I am already used to your perverted looks and your eyes which 90% of the time are on my boobs.
Can look, cannot touch, ok? Else, you'll be so dead. I do taekwondo, body combat, body pump and kickfit.

Giving up on singing as well because no matter how hard I practise I will always be tone deaf. It's not as much of my singing skill as my listening skill.

Hello strangers, if you think I've got curves, please do have the courtesy to tell it to my face. I need to know whether my body looks FAT/dull/Slim/Curvy/Masculine.
The conversation can go like this:
You (obviously been staring at my body for the past few minutes, thinking I got some curves): Hi, I think you have got some nice curves.
Me (pretending to be flattered): Really? Nobody ever told me that before. You're such a sweet person. Thank you so much. (Now buzz off)
Don't stare at my body so long because you think it's nice and just run away, without saying a word. I might think it's because I'm too fat I scare you away! Don't give me the wrong idea with the wrong look and response!!

Hello middle-aged guys, stop staring at my boobs.

2009-01-09T05:54:00.000+08:00

7 hours spent in redbox just to learn that I cannot sing.

My heart went Oh Yay Yay Yay

2008-12-30T07:37:00.002+08:00

When Debra sent me a text message via SMS
When she suggested we meet up and do some shopping
When I know I am going to see her and talk to her face to face
because one of the few who really get me is back!

Hope I don't sound like a lesbian, I do not have a crush on her.
She's one of my best friends.

My type of Music

2008-12-25T02:13:00.003+08:00

When it comes to music, I have a pretty odd taste. I do listen to techno, rock, hot, sexy songs but only during workouts. Most of the time I listen to slow, quiet songs that can bore you to death. (Yeah something like Norah Jones and Corinne Bailey)

I just uploaded a music playlist to my blog (No worries, they won't autoplay) If you're interested in knowing what kinda music I listen to, do play some of the songs in the list. I really love the first two songs though the lyrics are weird and maybe ... sexual? Haha

Dear Santa

2008-12-19T17:27:00.000+08:00

I've been a good kid this year, so can I get what I want?

All I want for Christmas is ... the gay guy!!

Movie Marathon #5: Wild Child [2008]

2008-12-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

Synopsis: A rich American girl is sent to an English boarding school by her father who is angry with her wild behavior.

This is a teenage chick flick with pretty cliched storyline but it is highly entertaining.
It will make you laugh. It will make you go "ow...so sweet". It will make you root for the main character. It will make you secretly wish Paris Hilton could pull a Wild Child too.

Movie Marathon #4: Strictly Sexual

2008-12-09T07:06:00.003+08:00

Movie Sypnosis: Two successful women, sick and tired of dating and relationships, decide to keep two young men in their pool house for strictly sexual purposes.

Yes, the movie is a bit sexual but it is also very real. Those with impressive experience in love with find themselves bonding and relating well to the movie.

One of the guys is so hot!

Movie Marathon #3: The Dark Knight

2008-12-09T06:54:00.003+08:00

Ok, may be a little too late for the jump onboard of the "I heart the new batman movie" ship but HEY, I'm sure the more the merrier.

It's really fantastic, I just wish I had seen it in a cinema.

Thank You

2008-11-22T03:57:00.000+08:00

Your result for The Personality Defect Test...

Sociopath

You are 57% Rational, 29% Extroverted, 57% Brutal, and 86% Arrogant.

You are the Sociopath! As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer. You are confident and capable of social interaction, but you prefer the silence of dead bodies to the loud, twittering nitwits you normally encounter in your daily life. You care very little for the feelings of others, possibly because you are not a very emotional person. You are also very calculating and intelligent, making you a perfect criminal mastermind. Also, you are a very arrogant person, tending to see yourself as better than others, providing you with a strong ability to perceive others as weak little animals, so tiny and small. You take great pleasure in the misery of others, and there is nothing sweeter to you than the sweet glory of using someone else's shattered failure to project yourself to success. Except sugar. That just may be sweeter. In short, your personality defect is the fact that you could easily be a sociopath, because you are calculating, unemotional, brutal, and arrogant. Please don't kill me for writing mean things about you! I have a 101 mile-long knife! Don't make me use it!

To put it less negatively:

1. You are more RATIONAL than intuitive.

2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.

3. You are more BRUTAL than gentle.

4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.

Compatibility:

Your exact opposite is the Hippie.

Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Spiteful Loner, the Smartass, and the Capitalist Pig.

If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits.

The other personality types:

The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble.

The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant.

The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble.

The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

Be sure to take my Sublime Philosophical Crap Test if you are interested in taking a slightly more intellectual test that has just as many insane ramblings as this one does!

About Saint_Gasoline

I am a self-proclaimed pseudo-intellectual who loves dashes. I enjoy science, philosophy, and fart jokes and water balloons, not necessarily in that order. I spend 95% of my time online, and the other 5% of my time in the bathroom, longing to get back on the computer. If, God forbid, you somehow find me amusing instead of crass and annoying, be sure to check out my blog and my webcomic at SaintGasoline.com.

Take The Personality Defect Test at HelloQuizzy

Movie Marathon #2: 海角七号

2008-11-09T02:35:00.003+08:00

I don't know what to say about this movie. All I know is it is a must watch for all the chinese out there. I'm also shocked that Taiwan was able to produce such a good film. The film makes me want to learn japanese, it makes me think japanese is the most beautiful language in the world. (mind you, not French)
Did I tell you that it's also funny? 那些又太又土的老人在那里瞎搞，用台语在那里瞎掰，非常好笑！The songs are really nice and touching.

Little secret: I actually downloaded the movie because of 梁文音. But she's only shown at the very end of the movie for like 15 seconds?

Movie Marathon #1: Cyborg Girl / Boku no kanojo wa saibôgu

2008-11-09T02:20:00.002+08:00

Very first piece of advice: If you're in dire need of romance/love, please don't go for western movies. They're all about sex. I don't blame them, that's the way they show their feelings. But the always-sex-part in their movies make us very difficult to fantasize or imagine a true love without hot sex.

Talking bout Cyborg Girl, it's directed by the same director who directed My Sassy Girl which has remained my all time favourite romance comedy since I first saw it. This first half of the movie is hilarious while the second half is touching. That's his style... sweet first, then bitter, then ending..leaving you asking for more.

Strongly recommend to girls who love chick flicks and guys who love japanese girls
Look at the poster! Do you see the cyborg girl? She is super kawaii...

Movie Marathon started again!

2008-11-09T02:16:00.003+08:00

As you know, (or you don't) I do a movie marathon once a year. How long it will last? how many movies I will watch? I'm not sure myself. This time I decided to start my movie marathon with asian movies. I won't write much for the reviews since we're no professional judges to pass criticism on the acting

2008-11-08T21:13:00.002+08:00

When you have a mind that thinks way faster than your mouth speaks, talking seems to be a difficult thing;

When you stay quiet for a time too long, you tend to forget how to speak

When there is no one willing to hear you sincerely, you find it meaningless to talk at all

Somehow, I've just grown lazy to talk

Because it doesn't get me anywhere.

Because I'm always out of words.

Because I can't describe the slightest sensation I feel with mere words.

Because I started thinking talking is a waste of time.

I need Oxygen!!

2008-10-24T00:49:00.001+08:00

I need O2

I need to breatheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

I need air

There's no reason not to be gay

2008-10-21T22:10:00.001+08:00

I just found out that

The guy that I had a crush on for months is gay

Let's turn gay together, everybody -__-

Poor leadership = problem

2008-10-17T13:03:00.002+08:00

Regret is a word that I am not familiar with. Instead of lingering and pining over something that has happened, I always choose to move on. I scarcely regret. For the first time in years, I regret doing what I just did - I ratted out my group members. I put things in the worst possible way, making it sound even worse than it actually was. The more I tried to make up for the wrong things that I said, the worse it got. All I am trying to say is I am truly sorry to my group members and I suck as a group leader.

If I likened a group leader to a king, and I were the group leader, I would be a tyrant.
The fact that I contributed 90% work to the assignment did not infuriate me. It has always been this way since we are a group. This is how it always works. It has worked so many times in our past assignments and we were content because nobody cared about the individual contribution of each member to the assignment and nobody raised up the sensitive issue. This time, it failed because the issue has been brought up. Being the honest/crude/blunt me, I told her the truth and I feel bad because I was the biggest cause of all! Delegating them only a small amount of work, I let myself do all the work. (Reasons for such action is another sensitive issue)

I don't know how my lecturer will interpret my review on each member's contribution to the assignment but I think they will probably get much lower marks. How am I gonna tell them it's all because of me and what I said?

I'm sorry I'm hooked on SNL!!

2008-10-08T01:45:00.007+08:00

Go to this website and watch the videos
Oh my god they're hilarious

and have u seen the impersonation on Sarah Palin by Tina Fey?
How can you not love Tina Fey? She is this whole package of beauty, humor and talents!

edited: seems like it's not as funny as I thought it was because I showed the video to joanne, sabrina and sharon and none of them found it funny.

2008-09-22T03:23:00.002+08:00

I've been very busy, tired and eating a lot.

I'm so sorry that I've too busy and tired to care for my friends lately.

Ming Jing, Happy Belated Birthday! I totally forgot about your birthday.

Tiffany, Happy Belated Birthday to you too. I remembered your birthday, just couldn't get myself to even send you a birthday greeting 'cause you're never online.

Connie, sorry for ONLY sending you a birthday greeting which was the least I could do.

new discoveries

2008-09-14T20:58:00.002+08:00

- I've picked up a new hobby - go to Waffle World and help the staff when I'm bored even when I'm off
- Have tried different looks: nerdy, cool, bookworm, boyish, cold; just never tried 'feminine' yet.. decided to keep my hair long and wavy this time, even though it means HOT HOT HOT as in long hair hot! as in exposed under the sun hot!

Roger Federer is back!!

2008-09-10T08:08:00.004+08:00

The tennis god is back! Forgive him for having not been himself for the past few months which cost him the championship of other 3 grand slams.

I don't think I've ever liked a man as much as I like him.

angie's bad day

2008-09-09T00:50:00.002+08:00

(taken from my conversation with alethea; thanks for the editing, ale!) (too lazy to blog)

it's one of those days
bad luck
let me roughly tell u what happened
1st i almost ran into a van today from behind
2nd my history teacher wouldnt give me a make up 'in class exercise' because I couldn't produce an MC even though i ran into her and told her i wouldn't go for class because i was sick. she knew i was sick but still.... so 1% gone
3rd slipped at work, knee cap knocked into the big piece of glass attached to the wall... caused a big crack...boss said the fixing would cost rm2000... not sure whether i would be asked to pay

a whole piece of glass,not A GLASS
a big piece of glass attached to the wall
there is a big crack now
come to waffle world and see
my KNEE CAP knocked into the wall
i slipped
and the wall was the thing that stopped the impact
else i would have slipped further in
so imagine

shit my teacher already knew i didn't go see a doctor
whats the point of getting an MC now
its not a test
ITS JUST AN IN CLASS EXERCISE
and she wouldn't let me do it?
JUST AN EXERCISE
its not even test
its nothing as big as A TEST
and the shitty teacher...
she could have told me there would be an 'in class exercise' on friday
so that i would drag myself to sch even though i was sick
when i ran into her on thurs, telling her i was going home because i was sick
she was all 'aiyer better don't come for class.... i don't wan to get infected'
1% is a lot u know
she said there's nth she could do without the MC

i walked out of the class when she's still teaching
the class started at 10
she told me bout it at 10.30
at 11 sharp, i left the classroom
heard from my classmate that some said i was brave
some said i was rude
because i just walked right out of the classroom
without informing the teacher
i didn't freaking care
i was kinda mad
i lay on the desk for 30 mins before i decided to leave
and the book was closed the whole time

i'm more worried about the 2k glass thing
its a matter of money
i'm still in debts
2k? why dun u kill me now

How Far We've Come

2008-09-08T00:30:00.000+08:00

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world
But it's feeling just like every other morning before,
Now i wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,
The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour if that
And I started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
Can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

But I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well, I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
Then I can't remember caring for an hour or so
Started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street and took a look at myself
Said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
Say your goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I believe it all is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess we're gonna pretend
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come

Its gone gone baby its all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
It was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you
Well its gone gone baby its all gone
There is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
Well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
Now it's over for me and it's over for you

I believe the world is burning to the ground
Oh well, I guess we're gonna find out
Let's see how far we've come
Let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
Oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
Let's see how far we've come X9

2008-09-07T21:18:00.004+08:00

Got my new laptop a week ago, am happy with it.
Got my paycheck yesterday, cleared all the debts (except mom's)..nothing left.
Skipped work today, because I am sick.
Have been sick for a few days but my manager wouldn't let me take a day off until I called in sick.
Have been so busy with life that I feel a mixture of tiredness and happiness.
Feel that my life has never been so meaningful
Being busy is the only way to keep me from saying 'I'm bored' and away from boredom
Body combat is always awesome
Miss Jason Ooi's zumba a lot; Deno's zumba class just doesn't turn me on
I cannot not scream in body pump class because my legs always feel like burning
Realized the importance of stepping up a notch in my studies

2008-09-05T00:33:00.004+08:00

I don't know how some people manage to make everything about themeselves and I don't know how they manage to make others feel bad about what they should feel bad about instead. Maybe I am one of them but I wouldn't know cause nobody will think bad of himself/herself unless he/she has some kind of psychological disorder.

I still seriously think that it's so much better to be alone cause people means trouble and trouble means more trouble.

OH I just wanna say people who always walk away from problem before it is sorted out suck. It's not like you can solve the problem by walking away and leaving it rot forever. You're just lying to yourself, not willing to accept anything you don't wanna hear or see. You know I'm talking about you, you always do the same thing. You sensitive bitch.

and since when I LOST THE PRIVILEGE OF GETTING ANGRY FIRST?
I know I haven't got many friends to lose but it's okay to lose some more.

Hello I'm a girl

2008-08-31T02:34:00.002+08:00

Hello strangers!

Yes, I know I look like a guy. Yes I know I look handsome in my black polo tee and my black G2000 slacks.

No, there isn't a stick in between my legs. So can you freaking stop staring at my lower body?

MY CGPA IS RUINED

2008-08-28T21:37:00.002+08:00

2008-08-28T19:15:00.002+08:00

Slowly I understand the power of language.

Mockery is the last thing I need because I have 4 brothers who do the best mocking job in the world. I don't think I need any other mocking friends to make myself suffer.

I still think I'm better off alone because talking is such an overrated thing. Whatever you say, it goes into people's hearts. Whatever they say, goes into your heart. Human beings should just go their own way, do only what they want 'cause this is the way of living.

Step 101

2008-08-25T19:59:00.001+08:00

Hello and BYE to step 101.
First and last time ever.
If it wasn't for the hot instructor, there's no way I would have gone.
Bye bye to Ayisha... the Latina Flava class was freaking sexy and awesome.
I felt like I was in Hawaii.

2008-08-21T16:22:00.002+08:00

The thing about Chinese is that:

When malay customers are served by chinese, they are happy
When chinese customers are served by chinese, they are indifferent
When chinese customers are served by malays, they are unhappy
When chinese customers are served by westerners, they are ecstatic
When malay customers are served by malays, they speak Malay
When malay customers are served by westerners, they panic
When western customers are served by chinese, it depends on their preferences
When western customers are served by malays, it depends on their preferences too (but I boldly presume they prefer chinese to malay)

I would like to

2008-08-21T16:15:00.002+08:00

have a make-up artist friend to tell me my right make up because I feel the need to start learning to apply make up already
have a caucasian friend as my eye candy
do zumba fitness everyday
get my laptop back!!
go to a nice movie with some friends
talk until I cannot talk
read comic until I fall asleep
shave off a layer of fat around my belly
eat without gaining any weight
fire the malay worker who keeps telling me what to do, who forgets that she's no better than I am, who isn't liked by the boss

Updates

2008-08-19T23:42:00.002+08:00

-Am working at Waffle World .. the pay is Rm5 an hour
-the owner of the store is very scary, wouldn't wanna piss her off
-Abir, Alethea and Yee Wern came by to visit me at work today. One of them even spanked my butt twice. They actually came to make my life miserable, trying to get me fired by saying "oh the hot dog is LONG, BIG! SO LONG, SO BIG!"
-Michael Phelps has got a really hot body..just wish he was better looking

american kids are mature

2008-08-19T00:51:00.001+08:00

Robert says:
i am katie
Angela says:
who is katie haha
Robert says:
who are you
Angela says:
erm... someone in the lu family?
Robert says:
yes
Angela says:
i mean I am from the lu family
Robert says:
are you from sibu?
Angela says:
yes yes
Angela says:
my dad was his dad's younger brother
Robert says:
i like you name angela
Angela says:
thanks! i like my name too
Angela says:
my parents almost named me monica
Angela says:
so u're his wife or sth?
Robert says:
do you like my name katie lu?
Angela says:
katie is a cute name haha
Angela says:
i haven't got any friend named katie so far
Angela says:
who are u?
Robert says:
i am robert lu child
Angela says:
i see
Angela says:
oldest or youngest?
Angela says:
i'm not sure how many kids he has haha
Robert says:
2
Angela says:
oh so which one are u
Robert says:
i am 7
Angela says:
wah
Angela says:
really?
Angela says:
impressive
Robert says:
yes
Angela says:
i'm 20 haha
Angela says:
so u have an elder sister
Robert says:
my sister is 13
Angela says:
i think we used to call her ocean
Robert says:
her name is ocean
Angela says:
i saw her once when she was small and i was young
Angela says:
u weren't born yet that time haha
Robert says:
ok
Robert says:
i am in usa have you been there?
Angela says:
i'll be going there next year
Angela says:
for studies
Robert says:
where in usa
Robert says:
i am in mo
Angela says:
hmm... not too sure yet...depends which university i go to
Angela says:
probably indiana or nebraska
Robert says:
good luck i hope to see you next year
Angela says:
haha not too sure about that
Angela says:
i wanna go to california or new york
Robert says:
where are you now?
Angela says:
so why are using ur dad's account?
Angela says:
stuck in KL
Angela says:
doing my american degree transfer program
Robert says:
i am sharing my dad laptop i dont have my own laptop my sister has her own
Angela says:
whoa... i only got one when i was 18
Robert says:
oh ok
Angela says:
yeah guess things are different in the states
Robert says:
do you want to come to missouri to study?
Angela says:
haha i don't think so
Robert says:
i go to wanda gray
Robert says:
school
Angela says:
it's a school?
Robert says:
next year i am going to second grade
Angela says:
good...
Angela says:
have u ever been to malaysia?
Robert says:
yeah this summer
Angela says:
like it?
Robert says:
few months agao
Robert says:
too hot
Angela says:
yeah that's malaysia haha
Angela says:
we have only summer u know
Robert says:
haha
Robert says:
yes i know
Robert says:
at least we got realy cool ac
Robert says:
did you watch the olympics?
Angela says:
yeah i did
Angela says:
i watched the badminton finals
Angela says:
i'm more into tennis actually...
Angela says:
wish i could go to the US open one day haha
Robert says:
you should have saw the gymnastic that was good
Robert says:
haha
Angela says:
oh i watched a lil bit of it
Angela says:
i know china won
Angela says:
i saw the highlights
Robert says:
individual us won
Robert says:
i meanUS
Angela says:
i know haha
Angela says:
are u sure u're 7? u dun sound like 7 at all
Angela says:
or is it that american kids are way more mature than malaysian kids?
Robert says:
DID YOU WATCH THE SWIMMNG?
Angela says:
I DID
Angela says:
MICHAEL PHELPS WON
Angela says:
i was so happy lol
Robert says:
YES
Angela says:
eighth gold medal....that's so impressive
Angela says:
he broke the record
Robert says:
I AM 7
Angela says:
7 year old malaysian kids don't talk like that
Angela says:
they'll be too busy watching cartoons
Robert says:
I AM NOT M.
Angela says:
i know
Angela says:
just pointing out the difference
Robert says:
OK
Robert says:
DON'T YOU NEED TO GO TO SLEEP?
Angela says:
i do haha
Angela says:
but i'm here chatting with u, ain't I
Angela says:
what time is it over there?
Robert says:
IT WAS NICE TALKING TO YOU IT IS ALMOST NOON HERE
Angela says:
yeah its nice talking to u too
Angela says:
it's almost 1 am here
Robert says:
talk to you again bye bye
Angela says:
byee

We dream

2008-08-17T03:01:00.000+08:00

Akuma says:
the politics will be based on sparta's
Angela says:
walao eh
Akuma says:
nvm we'll build one very small one
Akuma says:
borrow land from china
Angela says:
spartan politics? so cruel
Angela says:
LOL
Akuma says:
nvm
Angela says:
no need
Angela says:
sarawak got a lot of free lands
Akuma says:
we put all money into military investments
Akuma says:
okay also
Angela says:
we borrow some from the ibans
Akuma says:
yeah
Akuma says:
then um
Akuma says:
when we got enough power
Angela says:
they'll sell them to us at a very cheap price
Akuma says:
we attack whole borneo
Angela says:
haha attack?
Angela says:
don't bother
Akuma says:
then ummm we got more land and money and resources
Akuma says:
then attack west msia
Akuma says:
if can attack whole asian countries
Angela says:
we are not going to use violent techniques
Akuma says:
soon we expand to india
Angela says:
we swallow them
Akuma says:
east europe
Akuma says:
wahahaha
Akuma says:
okah
Akuma says:
okay
Akuma says:
how
Akuma says:
im not good in that
Angela says:
no we start from a small place first
Akuma says:
need lawyers or not
Angela says:
that small place will be our country
Angela says:
with very high speed broadband
Akuma says:
whats our economy?
Angela says:
HOTSPOT
Akuma says:
HAHA
Angela says:
hmm liberal!
Akuma says:
OH YAY
Angela says:
i'm liberal on both econ and social issues
Angela says:
yes we need lawyers
Akuma says:
lol
Angela says:
we'll call ym and connie back
Akuma says:
okay
Akuma says:
all unite
Angela says:
and we'll open a 'white' place for whites
Akuma says:
we need to introduce many departments
Angela says:
yes yes
Akuma says:
or divisions
Akuma says:
wah
Angela says:
i'm good in politics now
Akuma says:
wow
Akuma says:
u'll be the head of internal and external affairs
Akuma says:
whaahha
Angela says:
we need to move some renowned universities to my our country
Angela says:
we need a president!
Akuma says:
hah uni hard leh
Akuma says:
elect daniel as president
Angela says:
no uni, no students! no foreigners!
Akuma says:
ok
Angela says:
its gonna be a democratic country
Akuma says:
we'll just build one uni enough already
Angela says:
and i'll set a congress
Akuma says:
coz our land is too small
Angela says:
ok ok we start a new uni
Akuma says:
wow whats that
Akuma says:
shit i dont know politics
Angela says:
and we make sure it gets into the world's top 10 uni
Angela says:
its american politics haha
Akuma says:
i wanna buy professors from harvard cambridge mit oxford yale princeton
Akuma says:
wahahah
Angela says:
in US, its democratic
Angela says:
in UK, its parliamentary
Akuma says:
it will win over harvard
Angela says:
lol
Akuma says:
okay.... t
Akuma says:
politics
Akuma says:
i hope i wont have to study in nus
Angela says:
we don't buy... we seduce them to our country
Akuma says:
ok but use what
Angela says:
cause its gonna be a country with onl smart ppl
Akuma says:
as seduction
Angela says:
wait since we have limited modals
Akuma says:
do we need pretty gals
Angela says:
we need steal new techs from other countries
Angela says:
WE DO
Akuma says:
so that our generations will all be handsome and pretty
Akuma says:
HAHAHA
Angela says:
NO PRETTY GIRLS, WHO WANS TO LIVE IN OUR COUNTRY?
Akuma says:
walao
Angela says:
we need all the good genes
Akuma says:
bring the most leng ang mo
Angela says:
lol
Akuma says:
most beautiful prc
Akuma says:
korean
Angela says:
and most leng japanese
Akuma says:
jap
Akuma says:
yes
Akuma says:
bring all
Angela says:
and i'll start research on genes
Angela says:
ll i might need ur skinny genes
Akuma says:
wah ok u'll be head of bioresearch too
Angela says:
to produce our skinny citizens
Akuma says:
ok
Akuma says:
take some
Angela says:
lol i need some also
Akuma says:
wah nice la our country
Angela says:
we remove the fat cells from fat ppl and put in skinny genes to help them lose weiht
Akuma says:
whats our country name!!!!
Angela says:
in doing so, they'll come to our country
Angela says:
oh i don't care mind the name
Angela says:
lets give us 5 to 10 years to build up the country
Akuma says:
so young!
Angela says:
after that i wanna aim for olympic
Akuma says:
start building now or what
Akuma says:
yes
Akuma says:
we must get the most golds and medals
Akuma says:
hiak hiak
Angela says:
we must have an olympic in our country
Akuma says:
we must produce nobel prize winners
Angela says:
HAHAH MOST GOLDS AND MEDALS CANNOT LAH HAHAH
Akuma says:
yes
Akuma says:
can la
Angela says:
oh wait
Akuma says:
spartan politics
Angela says:
since our country is gonna be a beautiful country
Akuma says:
every baby must lift at least 1kg weight
Angela says:
all the citizens will be qualified enough to join beauty contest
Akuma says:
then as age increases
Akuma says:
increase weight
Angela says:
like miss world, miss universe, mr.perfect
Akuma says:
at 10 years old, all youngsters must master 10 sports
Angela says:
our citizens will win all the contests
Akuma says:
yes
Akuma says:
must win miss world
Angela says:
lol ll u'll be the first to fail in that
Akuma says:
HAHA
Akuma says:
nvm
Akuma says:
we're leaders
Angela says:
and we are gonna build the largest gym in the world
Akuma says:
cannot be example
Angela says:
we offer free access to all our citizens
Angela says:
to encourage them to keep fit, healthy and exercise
Akuma says:
since we dont have enough land, ur gym must be 1000 storeys
Akuma says:
every building in our country must be high enough to save land space
Angela says:
wah
Angela says:
1000 storeys? too high
Angela says:
when the planes fly by, will run into our buildings
Akuma says:
oh and we'll build the highest building in the world
Angela says:
make sure u save this conversation haha
Angela says:
this is our city plan
Akuma says:
hmmmmm
Akuma says:
i think we cannot use planes
Akuma says:
in order to be hi-tech
Angela says:
hmm use jet?
Akuma says:
we must invest a lot in hi-tech stuffs
Akuma says:
like teleportation
Angela says:
everyone is entitled to a free private jet haha
Akuma says:
instant travel
Angela says:
oh oh
Akuma says:
and cannot let the tech leak to other country
Angela says:
teleportation is good
Angela says:
we are an environmental friendly country
Angela says:
we don't use fossil fuels
Angela says:
we don't create pollutions
Akuma says:
oh what s the penalty for drug buying and distributing?
Akuma says:
okay
Akuma says:
good
Angela says:
yes yes and i'll hire some of my friends to do researches in nanotech
Akuma says:
cannot
Angela says:
hmm nobody is allowed to sell drugs except for us
Akuma says:
nanotech exists in some country already
Angela says:
we'll organize a drug party once a week
Akuma says:
we must go for smaller one, picotech
Angela says:
for our citizens to chill and get stoned
Akuma says:
HAHAHA WALAO
Angela says:
too much pressure will kill them
Angela says:
we'll offer them free weeds
Akuma says:
what about abortion law?
Angela says:
but not too much
Akuma says:
is it allowed
Angela says:
yes yes allowed
Angela says:
but u must go for an interview
Akuma says:
LOL
Akuma says:
LOL
Angela says:
telling us the reason for the abortion
Akuma says:
if fail then must become mother
Angela says:
if we dun like ur reaosn, we deny ur right to abortion
Akuma says:
good
Akuma says:
we'll need a lot of good judges
Angela says:
hmm
Angela says:
oh
Angela says:
yeah
Angela says:
we will have a supreme court
Angela says:
both of us will appoint the justices
Akuma says:
we need to invite more ppl into this country
Akuma says:
i mean invite from frens
Angela says:
hmmm
Angela says:
we need their expertise
Akuma says:
see what position they can take
Angela says:
sabrina are going to be a doctor
Angela says:
we need her for the healthcare system
Akuma says:
ym fan zheng be lawyer
Akuma says:
yeah
Akuma says:
sharon is counselling
Angela says:
king hung and kevin are gonna be pharmacists
Angela says:
oh sharon...
Akuma says:
hmmm
Angela says:
well i'm gonna appoint sharon as our diplomatic advisor
Akuma says:
andrew should become a cleaner
Angela says:
since she's good in psychology and stuff
Akuma says:
okay good idea!
Angela says:
ANDREW EH IS UGLY
Angela says:
HE'S FORBIDDEN IN OUR COUNTRY
Akuma says:
LOL
Angela says:
ACCESS DENIED
Akuma says:
LOL LOL!!!!1
Angela says:
its okay... since we went to the same school
Akuma says:
do we need prisons?
Angela says:
we'll offer him the service of our best plastic surgeon
Akuma says:
hahaha!
Angela says:
but he needs to pay
Angela says:
we're not giving him any free service
Angela says:
prisons...
Akuma says:
oh yah we need anime
Akuma says:
so anime is not banned
Angela says:
i don't like to torture ppl physically
Angela says:
of course its not!
Akuma says:
anime dl is not banned
Akuma says:
mp3 also
Angela says:
downloading is not good
Akuma says:
then how
Angela says:
i mean for a higher efficacy
Angela says:
we should share
Angela says:
we'll open a library
Akuma says:
hahaha
Akuma says:
HAAH
Angela says:
with various departments
Angela says:
say anime department
Akuma says:
WAH SO NICE
Angela says:
where we provide free animes
Akuma says:
ebook department
Angela says:
yes yes
Akuma says:
movie department
Angela says:
cause we are environmental friendly
Akuma says:
is porno allowed?
Akuma says:
porno department
Akuma says:
kakakaa
Angela says:
we try to use as few papers as possible
Angela says:
and we will import ikea furniture designers to our country
Angela says:
ask them to design furniture for our country
Angela says:
they will also be our citizens
Akuma says:
our country is a dream country
Akuma says:
wow
Angela says:
of course of course...
Akuma says:
oh yah
Angela says:
the library is going to be very big
Akuma says:
must set up a Human relationship department
Akuma says:
help ppl to find bf/gf
Angela says:
u mean Cupid department?
Akuma says:
so u can go for it
Akuma says:
yeah
Angela says:
human relationship sounds so pathetic
Akuma says:
Cupid then
Akuma says:
it sounds very cute
Angela says:
yes yes we need a cupid department
Akuma says:
wah nice for u
Akuma says:
u can have a bf then
Angela says:
and we need the best matchmakers
Angela says:
-__-
Akuma says:
must wait till we setup the department only u can find a bf
Akuma says:
hahaha
Angela says:
i'll be too busy running our country ok
Angela says:
i won't have time for a relationship
Akuma says:
dont worry
Angela says:
i dont need that department
Akuma says:
since 24 hours is not enough
Angela says:
i'll just go to the 'white' area to fish some guys
Akuma says:
we will make a timehouse
Akuma says:
where the time is moving slower inside
Angela says:
aiyo no matter how smart we are we cannot bend time
Akuma says:
so instead of 24 hours, u get 100 hours inside
Akuma says:
can can
Akuma says:
can make time goes slower
Angela says:
cannot.. if we have that ability, everyone in our country will commit crime
Angela says:
we must be fair
Akuma says:
u watch dragon ball too mah
Angela says:
we get only what everyone else gets
Akuma says:
hah
Akuma says:
okay lor
Akuma says:
banish the idea
Angela says:
ok lo if u insist
Angela says:
we ask hiro to come n help us
Akuma says:
HAHA
Akuma says:
that jap guy?
Angela says:
oi u saving this conversation?
Angela says:
yeap
Angela says:
he can travel in time
Akuma says:
u got save?
Angela says:
and bend the space of the time
Akuma says:
oh yah
Angela says:
this is not my laptop
Akuma says:
do we need police
Angela says:
oh we do
Angela says:
we still do
Akuma says:
make robot polices
Akuma says:
they're more efficient
Angela says:
though i am not sure what they'll be doing
Angela says:
robot police are stupid
Angela says:
ok la
Akuma says:
what
Angela says:
we'll make smart ones
Akuma says:
we install good chips
Akuma says:
yesh
Angela says:
we'll make smart robot police
Angela says:
we dun need police, WE NEED TERMINATORS
Akuma says:
is lying allowed?
Akuma says:
i mean cheating
Akuma says:
walao terminators are too violent
Angela says:
lying is allowed of course
Akuma says:
later all citizens kena killed
Angela says:
what's cheating?
Angela says:
we can program the terminators to be soft when necessary
Angela says:
crimes are not allowed in our country
Akuma says:
richard is the head of department of cheating
Akuma says:
lying
Angela says:
cause everyone will be rich, pretty, skinny and stuff
Akuma says:
department of lying
Akuma says:
wahahaa
Angela says:
we dun need that department!
Angela says:
its of no use
Akuma says:
department of lying is important!!!!!
Angela says:
oh oh
Akuma says:
we need to expand our lands
Angela says:
richard will conduct lying lessons
Akuma says:
LOL
Angela says:
so that every citizen of us will go out to get more free lands for us
Akuma says:
need to teach our citizens how to take advantage of other countries' citizens
Angela says:
thats how we're gonna expand our country
Akuma says:
yes
Angela says:
yes yes
Akuma says:
very good
Angela says:
so we'll need richard
Akuma says:
once we conquer the whole world
Akuma says:
hiak hiak
Angela says:
cannot eh
Akuma says:
it's all ours!
Akuma says:
why
Angela says:
once we conquer the whole word, there's no one to lie to anymore
Akuma says:
okay..
Angela says:
we cannot lie to one another
Akuma says:
we're start exploring other planets
Akuma says:
galaxies
Akuma says:
but that's too far from our target now
Akuma says:
lets just focus on earth
Angela says:
citizens are entitled to their privileges and rights
Angela says:
hahahahah
Angela says:
u are gonna invent a teleporter
Angela says:
and teleport all of us to the moon
Akuma says:
oky
Akuma says:
wah nice
Angela says:
oh oh i know
Angela says:
we can open a vacation department
Akuma says:
wah that's super nice
Akuma says:
must have that
Angela says:
and and
Angela says:
we'll teleport to the moon for vacation
Akuma says:
wahahahah
Angela says:
cause we wouldn't wanna go to the same boring places everybody else in this planet goes to
Akuma says:
need to pay how much
Angela says:
eleh
Akuma says:
mars for spa
Angela says:
u are inventing the teleporter
Angela says:
lol
Angela says:
mars got no oxygen
Angela says:
will die
Angela says:
not enough O2
Akuma says:
dont worry we'll build a temp building there
Angela says:
we invade this planet first
Akuma says:
providing all sorts of equipments
Akuma says:
okay
Angela says:
only then we move to the next one
Akuma says:
hey lets say somebody is monitoring our conversation now
Angela says:
hmm or we make a 'sports planet'
Akuma says:
i think he/she would go insane
Angela says:
when we feel like exercising, we teleport to that planet
Angela says:
and that's where we're gonna hold our olympics
Akuma says:
hahahaahahha
Akuma says:
ohh my goodness
Akuma says:
we've come this far!!!!1
Angela says:
one planet is big enough for olympic!
Akuma says:
okay
Angela says:
our olympic is gonna be a grand one
Akuma says:
1% completed
Angela says:
i wanna shake hands with roger federer
Akuma says:
our country is 1% completed
Angela says:
i wan him to be my neighbour hahha
Akuma says:
we shall have more meetings
Akuma says:
we'll call ian,sharon,daniel,ym,richard,kevin next time
Angela says:
yes yes hahha
Akuma says:
ask them give ideas
Angela says:
i hope they'll have the same views as ours
Akuma says:
nice country
Angela says:
its a dream country lol
Angela says:
free acces to gym, anime, books, movies, music
Akuma says:
haha they'll come up with all sorts of funny departments
Angela says:
and i'm serious about our country!
Angela says:
ok we also need a sex department
Akuma says:
HAHA
Akuma says:
WTF
Angela says:
to teach ppl how to have sex
Akuma says:
that's so nice
Angela says:
how to conceive a chil
Akuma says:
and and
Akuma says:
need to ban prostitutes?
Angela says:
to increase our population, we need to do that
Akuma says:
okay
Angela says:
hmm there won't be prostitutes
Angela says:
since we have a cupid department
Akuma says:
good
Angela says:
go to the sex department if u wan free sex
Angela says:
we arrange ppl to meet up for one night stands
Angela says:
if u dun, its cool
Akuma says:
we should encourage sex between couples
Angela says:
yes yes
Angela says:
i'll order sab to work on that
Akuma says:
okay this country is perfect now
Akuma says:
HAHA
Akuma says:
WHAT
Akuma says:
sab in sex department!??!
Akuma says:
HAHAHA
Akuma says:
can she handle it!
Angela says:
if u're sexually dysfunctional, ask sab to inject some sex hormones into ur body
Akuma says:
she's not too open-minded for that
Angela says:
no she won't be working in the sex department
Angela says:
i'll check on the department from time to time
Angela says:
sabrina will be in medical department
Angela says:
ok where do we put debra?
Akuma says:
debra
Akuma says:
hmmmm
Akuma says:
cant think of any atm
Akuma says:
hahahaa
Angela says:
yeah
Angela says:
dunno what industrial engineers do
Akuma says:
who's gona design our city
Angela says:
i'll appoint stanley ting as our PR
Angela says:
since he's so great at choi soi
Akuma says:
OH YAH STANLEY
Angela says:
he will make a good promoter for our country
Akuma says:
YA pr is perfect for stan
Akuma says:
waahahaha
Angela says:
yeah
Angela says:
and we can organize a choi soi competition occasionally
Angela says:
oh wait.... i wan to have a model department
Angela says:
we hire top models to give model lessons to our citizens who have great potential
Angela says:
to help them become supermodels in the world
Angela says:
that will get us free publicity
Akuma says:
wahahahha
Akuma says:
we need someone to lead that department
Akuma says:
u'll lead it
Angela says:
hmm....
Angela says:
no i cannot haha
Angela says:
i'll let ym handle it
Angela says:
hahahhaha
Angela says:
oh wait what is dine gonna do
Angela says:
we're going too far lol
Akuma says:
OH ANOTHER THING
Akuma says:
FOOD!!!!!!
Angela says:
food?
Angela says:
hmmm
Akuma says:
YES
Angela says:
is george gonna be in our country?
Akuma says:
we need GOOD FOOD
Akuma says:
i dont think so
Akuma says:
daniel wont let him in
Angela says:
we dun need farmers
Angela says:
we need robot
Akuma says:
we must produce good food
Akuma says:
that's so nice that
Angela says:
we eat organic food!!!!!
Akuma says:
u can eat so many bowls but u wont get fat
Angela says:
its ok dun worry
Akuma says:
ya must taste nice de
Angela says:
every citizen will be given the skinny genes
Akuma says:
ok
Akuma says:
nice
Angela says:
we'll have food from all over th countey
Akuma says:
skinny country
Akuma says:
Okay
Akuma says:
lets call it a day
Angela says:
lol
Akuma says:
we've contributed a lot to our country
Angela says:
i was gonna say that
Akuma says:
wait till there're more ppl, we come up with a name
Akuma says:
ye
Akuma says:
yes
Akuma says:
it's time to sleep
Angela says:
we are not gonna plant or grow anything
Akuma says:
tmrw shall be a nice day
Angela says:
we will make other countries send food to us

2008-08-12T15:52:00.000+08:00

This is no news but the lead singer of Maroon 5 is damn hot!!!!!!!!

I am still dying to watch THE EDGE OF LOVE.

2008-08-11T14:07:00.000+08:00

I want to watch The Edge of Love and The Duchess!!
Damn it. Why do I live in Malaysia?

2008-08-03T22:31:00.001+08:00

Dear Ashley,

Although I don't know you, although I don't know how you looked like, I want to tell you that you kept a really beautiful journal. Thank you for sharing your story with us. You are famous now :D We are really proud of you and we won't forget your roommate was a fruitcake.

2008-07-31T16:11:00.001+08:00

I should stop asking my friends to come by anymore.
They come and they go.
I don't have many friends yet they are leaving one by one.
Some have already left, some are leaving soon.
Debra is in HK, Ee Gee is in Australia, Abir, Kevin and Connie are going to UK, Dine is going to US...

2008-07-30T16:39:00.002+08:00

komputer saya rosak. sekarang 'dia' sedang dibaiki. kena bayar banyak duit untuk memperbaikinya.
hari hari saya kena makan roti dengan kaya. Hari hari makan kaya tapi tidak jadi kaya pun.

Can't sleep... so I tag

2008-07-27T06:52:00.002+08:00

7 Facts About Me:

1. I am a movie buff.
2. I like twisted stories.
3. I'm type A
4. Absolutely LOVE ONIONS
5. Always complain I'm broke
6. Always complain I'm fat
7. Would like to have a caucasian boyfriend very much

7 Things That Scares Me:

1. ROACHES
2. Having people think I am stupid
3. Being FAT
4. Being left on an isolated island with no internet and computer access
5. Being looked down on
6. Having no friends
7. Getting more and more ugly each day

7 Songs Playing In My Head Lately:

1. 卢广仲 - 我爱你
2. 五月天- 拥抱
3. Voodoo Child
4. Enrique - Push
5. The Noisettes - Scratch your name
6. The Noisettes - Cannot Even
7. Sara Bareilles - Vegas

7 Valuable Things/People In My Life:

1. COMPUTER
2. INTERNET
3. MOVIES
4. MY BRAIN
5. MY MOTHER
6. MY FUTURE PARTNER
7. A HOT body which I'll get in 5 or 10 years

7 "First Time" In My Life:

1. Got straight A's (2005 SPM)
2. Watched 11 movies in a month (2007)
3. Conversed in English (2006)
4. Real presentation (2008)
5. Won a medal in taekwondo (2004)
6. Had a crush (when I was in primary 4)
7. Had sushi tie with my mom :> (2004)

7 Words Or Things That I Am Used To Saying/Doing:

1. OH MY GOD
2. I AM FAT
3. I NEED TO GO ON A DIET
4. I MUST GO TO GYM TOMORROW
5. WHAT THE HECK
6. I AM BROKE
7. LET'S GO SEE A MOVIE TOMORROW

7 People I Tag:

I tag No 1 2 3 4 5 6 7
Okay done

2008-07-27T03:36:00.002+08:00

I hate to hang out with people who are selfish but think they are selfless
Yes there are billions of people in this world but there are less than 10 that click with me

2008-07-23T19:08:00.002+08:00

Once in a while, I would like to tear away from studies.
Once in a while, I'll think how great it would be to be involved in film industry.
Once in a while, I'll think life is just a dream and what I dream is the reality.
Once in a while, I would like to be someone else rather than myself.
Once in a while, I wish I could be Type B instead of Type A as my psychology teacher says Type A people suffer a higher risk of heart disease and constantly expose themselves to a substantial amount of stress.
Once in a while, I would like to be a man and beat up guys that I don't like.

Mom, stop it!

2008-07-21T17:59:00.002+08:00

What would you do if you have a mother who constantly talks about going to die everytime you guys quarell?
What would you do if you have a mother who hears more than what is really said?
What would you do if you have a mother who is both mentally and physically weak? Who is so dependent on her children. Who is securely attached to her children.
What would you do if you have a mother who is over-sensitive about everything you say?
What would you do when you have a mother who is the total opposite of what you are?

I so wanna exercise right now but I forgot my pants. FUCK

让我发泄一下

2008-07-17T22:13:00.002+08:00

如果文字可以表达内心所有的感觉，那它也只是一篇文章。
如果文字可以列出世上种种的爱情，那它也只是一张名单。
如果没有‘如果’这个字眼，人是不是就会少了一点幻想空间？
如果人每时每刻都清楚自己想要的是什么，那人也只是一种机器。
如果这个世界没有色彩，我想我会很习惯孤独。
朋友是奢侈或是宝藏，取决于你自己的想法。
我们可以很疯狂，我们可以很理智；我们可以很吵闹，我们可以很安静；我们可以很真实，也可以很虚伪；我们可以很坚强，也可以很脆弱。
如果你可以很坦白，为何要扭捏做作？如果你可以很坚强，为何要装脆弱？
复杂的人生才是人过的。只有动物过着千片一律，枯燥乏味的生活。
实面，假面也都只是一个表面。脱下那个华丽还是沉闷的衣裳，就什么也不是。
如果你得知了我脑海里无边界的疯狂想象，我想你也只会说我一句“疯子”。

Ee gee, my friend!

2008-07-17T21:17:00.002+08:00

Thank you so much for willing to stay at my filthy place.

We had so much fun shopping and talking!

Somehow, I've grown used to gossiping with you every night before I go to bed even though you've only been here one night! I've grown used to answering you stupid questions and your 'what if' imaginations.

Every minute I spent with you was fun and well spent.

I am missing you already.

Do take care! Have a safe trip.

Hope to see you soon.

How true is that?

2008-07-16T14:34:00.001+08:00

You are generous with people in need, sometimes to an extreme that people find you nosey. Your hidden courage and dedication often surprise others. Your imagination is extremely unique. Your Love, Your love life is on the smooth track because it grows from friendship. Although you may not make a sweet lover but your sincerity bring happiness to your couple.

I highlighted those words myself. Haha

Got tagged again by Miss Daphne because others never bother to tag me

2008-07-13T17:08:00.002+08:00

Tag Number 1

-list 8 random facts about yourself and tag 8 people

1. I had a very short haircut recently.

2. I'll think I am hot when I lose all my excess fat.

3. I like twisted, dark stories so very much that I let them warp my mind.

4. I am a heavy downloader and sometimes a pirate distributor.

5. I get pretty insane when I'm alone. I don't show others my Mr.Hyde side.

6. Some cats have been lusting after one another and that disturbs me a lot. Oh I can hear them screaming out of desires. DAMN IT, STOP IT!

7. I am enjoying wearing singlets.

8. I also enjoy being braless?

Tag Number 2

First Name
-Angela

Name you wish you had
- Myriads of name I wish I could have had. Victoria so that I can go by 'Tori', Rachel....... but Angela suits me fine. I make a good Angela!

Do people normally mistake your name
-No. How hard is it to pronounce AN-GE-LA? Some people do mispronounce it as AN-JI-LA though.

Birthday

- 6th of July!

Birthplace

- Sibu

Time of Birth

- Probably 4 o'clock in the morning if my mom's memory served her right

Parents together or divorced

- This is a tough question. I suppose they are neither married nor divorced.

Opposite Gender.

What color eyes

- Give me sexy blue eyes!

What color hair

-Brunette!!

Shy or Outgoing

- Outgoing most of the time; shy only when I want him to be.

Looks or personality

- oh come on! they complement each other. Can't live without either one.

Sexy or Cute

-sexy please. I resent 'cute'

Older or Younger than you

- Much older

A turn on

-When he looks me in the eyes with his candid blue eyes
-Fixing my car for me with his shapely arms (Oh wait, I don't have a car!)

This Or That.

Flowers or Chocolate
- Chocolates. Sound sexier.

Pepsi or Coke
- Diet coke.

Rap or Rock
- Rap and then Rock.

Relationship or One night stand

- Er..................

School or Work

- Work

Love or Money

- Both

Movies or musics

- MOVIES with fantastic musics

Country or City

- City

Sunny or Rainy day

- I'm a shiny sunny sporty girl. I want the sun.

Friends or Family

- Er.......

Have you ever lied

- only to my family :<

Stole something

- Yes :>

Smoked

- tried once when i was 5 years old. Stupid brother. Hate smokers.

Hurt someone close to you

-Only my family.

Broke someones heart

- Oh yeah I WISH I COULD

Had you heart broken

- same answer. I WISH I COULD

Wondered what was wrong with you

- All the time.

Wish you were a prince/princess

- I'd rather be a queen

Liked someone

- I think so?

Liked someone who was taken

- Yes. I like things belong to others.

Shaved your head

- Not yet.

Been in love

- Teach me how.

Used chopsticks

- OF COURSE.

Sang in the mirror to yourself

- ooh, yeah!

Flower

- Only roses.

Song

- Sexy ones.

Scent

- natural

Color/s

- Blue, black, white, red

Movie

- I won't tell ya

Singer

- Not particularly

Word

- Can't think of one

To save my friends from the tagging hassle, I decided to remove the last part of the tag so that I wouldn't have to tag any of my friends.

My Sincere, BELATED thank you post

2008-07-13T16:43:00.004+08:00

I know it's been a week since my 20th birthday. I know it might be a little too late to finally be writing this 'thank you' post that you all MIGHT be expecting from me.

Thank you to:

-My roommate who actually sent me to a birthday greeting message 1 hour BEFORE my birthday because she couldn't hold herself up past 12 o'clock.
-My new classmates, Shi Xian and Yeong Her (She even sent me a birthday email!) for remembering my birthday although we've only known for a few months.
-My dear old friends, Ming Jing, Dine, Sharon, Connie, Grace, Sabrina, Daniel(I'm sorry if I left out your name... there're just too many of you)
-My cutie friend Daphne who comes to check out my blog all the time
-My KL wild friends, Yee Wern and Abir who treated me to the movie "Get Smart";whom I had my loudest laughter with in months; who wanted to get me a vibrator from a kinky shop named 'I Need House' for my birthday and got kindly rejected
-My close male friends, Ian, Kevin and Lee Loong for the cash which seemed to me at the time the best birthday present ever
-My net friend, Amy who was forced a birthday greeting (and a kiss?) by me.

I wonder what my best buddy, Ling Ee Gee was doing on my birthday. I imagined him to have given me a shrug in front of the computer screen while saying 'I know' when I reminded him my birthday on MSN. HELLO? ARE YOU REALLY MY BUDDY? YOU OWE ME A BIRTHDAY GREETING? WHAT'S WITH THAT INDIFFERENT TONE OF YOURS WHEN I TOLD YOU IT'S MY BIRTHDAY?